When you start to listen a song and you feel some cold-hot wind on your body,your eyes are filled with tears,you want to cry but at the same time you want to smile and then you don’t know what you wanna do jump,run or just simply sit and listen the music,…..that’s how #Trance effects on me 🙂 ❤
For me,every day is just same like the past one,there come harder days but i come out with a smile.There come in life that period,year a week when all days are just grey,almost.
For a long time now i live my life in a wrong way,trust to a wrong people,listen too many sad songs.I looked around myself and i discover that my World is falling apart and who should i blame for leting that happen but myself,no one push me into anything.I come to a conclusion that i must change this way of living or i will lose everything that i have but what is most important is myself,am gonna lose myself.
I don’t like those hard days fulled with pain,tears,disapointment,bad mood and where every little thing walk on your nervs,no i don’t because i’m not like that,i never was but i became that kind of person thanks to the wrong side effects in my Life.
Lately i find out who can i trust,on who can i lean on,from all of that people,my fake friends,relatives,family i made that selection and i find just one person,my mother,my lovely mother.
I don’t blame that people because no one is obligated to hold my hand and show me directions but all i expect ,at least, was advice ,good or bad but just someone to tell me anything.
I feel that i change myself a lot i guess pain does that to people.
I feel that i’m stronger a bigger fighter and that’s how i will remain but this time i will be wiser,i will depend on myself because i know to whom i can trust.
Life it’s just too short for me to let myself down,i want to live,to love,to make promises and to keep them,to travel,smile and million of great things.
I had goals in my life but i lost them on that stupid road that i create,now when i find myself again i will accomplish them,with strong will and my faith in dear God.
I believe in dear God, and i’m smart enough to know that everything happens for a reason.
I’ve got a life leason and i have learn things !!
When you stay alone,that nights are the hard ones, bring back your memories,sadness comes,loneliness,when you think about everything and then you realize that,what you once had,you lost because of some stupidity,pride,when you would give anything to turn back time.
Once before with so many love inside you have lived and now empty soul,full of pain running around looking for some rescue but all that is for nothing because you can’t do anything to get it back.
The rescue is in that one person which your soul belong too but that person is not there anymore,you have just a memory of her,beautiful moments and she is happy somewhere far away from you or maybe she is not,maybe her soul is empty just like mine but that’s just emptiness that you feel which push you to think about that and convincing yourself that she miss you like you miss her.
I used to wake up with a smile on his face, because he was there, because of which only that sincere smile was there,as an engine of me,my happiness and now,…
Now there is a smile but it’s not that smile,it’s a smile of fake happiness and that subconscious who is telling you that you must move on,alone,and so alone you must be an engine of everything,but what’s the point of life if you don’t have the one that you love,that you wanna live for.
Twerk added to Oxford dictionary -_- !!
twerk – dance to popular music in a sexually provocative manner involving thrusting hip movements and a low, squatting stance.